Stop Paddling for a Second

Can I be honest with you about something?

I think you already know what you need.

I think it's right there, sitting just below the noise, just underneath the overthinking, the comparison, the scrolling, the four-hundredth time you've asked yourself what am I even doing with my life and the only reason you can't find it is because you haven't stopped moving long enough to feel it.

I know that sounds annoyingly simple.

Stay with me.

The Problem with Paddling Nonstop

Here's something I see all the time in the water.

A newer surfer paddles out, and the second they get past the break, they start chasing.

Every ripple, every bump, every hint of a wave they're spinning and stroking and burning through every ounce of energy they have trying to catch something.

Anything.

And after forty-five minutes, they're gasping, exhausted, and they haven't caught a single ride.

Meanwhile, there's always someone else out there usually the quietest person in the lineup just sitting.

Watching.

Barely moving.

And when the right wave comes, they take two calm strokes and glide into it like they knew it was coming ten minutes ago.

The difference isn't talent.

It isn't luck.

It's awareness.

The first surfer is so locked into doing that they can't feel what the ocean is actually telling them.

The second surfer is paying attention.

They're reading the water.

Feeling the rhythm.

They're not reacting to every little thing they are tuned into something deeper.

Now let me ask you something, and I want you to sit with it for a second before you answer:

Which surfer are you right now?

In your life, not in the water.

Are you paddling nonstop chasing jobs, chasing goals, chasing some version of yourself you saw on someone else's Instagram and still somehow feeling like you're getting nowhere?

Are you so busy trying to figure out your purpose that you've completely lost the ability to feel what's already right in front of you?

The Fog Between Sets

There's this thing that happens in the ocean on certain mornings.

The fog rolls in and you can't see the horizon.

You can't see the sets coming.

You can barely see the person twenty feet from you.

Everything goes quiet and gray and a little disorienting, and if you're not careful, you start to panic.

You start making up stories.

I'm too far out. I've drifted. I don't know where I am.

That fog?

That's what it feels like when you've lost clarity in your life.

You're not broken.

You're not lazy.

You're not behind.

You're just in the fog.

And the fog is scary because it strips away all the things you normally use to orient yourself ,your plans, your timelines, your five-year vision that was supposed to make everything make sense.

But here's what experienced surfers know about fog: the ocean doesn't change just because you can't see it.

The waves are still coming.

The current is still moving.

Everything that was true about the water before the fog rolled in is still true.

You just can't see it for a while.

So what do you do?

You stop paddling.

You sit up on your board.

And you pay attention to what you can feel.

The temperature of the water on your legs.

The direction of the wind on your face.

The subtle lift and drop of the swells passing underneath you.

You stop relying on your eyes, on what things look like, and you start tuning into something quieter.

Something your body has known all along.

That's awareness.

Not figuring things out.

Not solving the puzzle of your life.

Just getting quiet enough to notice what's already there.

The Myth of Finding Your Purpose

Can I push on something for a second?

This idea that you need to "find your purpose" like it's a set of lost keys or a destination you haven't reached yet I think it's making a lot of us miserable.

Because it turns your entire life into a search.

And when you're searching, you're not present.

You're always somewhere else in your head.

Always looking past this moment for the next one.

Always assuming that the life you're living right now is the rough draft and the real thing is coming later.

What if it's not, though?

What if purpose isn't something you find?

What if it's something you notice?

What if it's already showing up in the things that make you lose track of time, in the conversations that light you up, in the stuff that makes you angry enough to care, in the quiet moments when you feel most like yourself and you've just been too busy paddling to feel it?

Awareness isn't about adding something new to your life.

It's about removing enough noise to see what was already there.

It's about sitting still on the board and realizing ,oh.

The waves have been coming this whole time.

I was just too frantic to notice.

A Breathing Exercise: The Still Water Scan

Okay.

Let's slow everything down right now.

Not later.

Not when you have time.

Right now.

This is a practice we call the Still Water Scan.

It takes about three minutes, and its only job is to bring you back to what's real and what's here.

No purpose to find.

No answers to chase.

Just you, noticing.

Step 1: Arrive.

Stop what you're doing. Sit somewhere. It doesn't have to be quiet or perfect: a couch, a parked car, your desk, the floor.

Put both feet flat on the ground. Let your hands rest wherever they naturally fall.

Take one big, unstructured breath: in through the nose, out through the mouth, as messy as it wants to be. That breath is you arriving.

Step 2: Drop in.

Close your eyes. Imagine yourself sitting on a surfboard in completely calm water.

No waves. No wind. Just flat, glassy ocean in every direction.

The sky is soft.

You're not waiting for anything. Nothing is coming. Nothing needs to happen.

You're just floating.

Step 3: Breathe and scan.

Now begin breathing slowly: in through the nose for 4 counts, out through the nose for 6 counts.

As you breathe, start scanning your body like you're checking the water around you.

First breath: Notice your feet on the ground. Feel the pressure, the temperature, the weight of them. That's real. You're here.

Second breath: Notice your hands. Are they tense? Gripping? Let them soften. Open your fingers slightly like you're letting water run through them.

Third breath: Notice your chest. Is it tight? Heavy? Just notice it. You don't need to fix it. Just see it.

Fourth breath: Notice your jaw and your face. Unclench. Let your tongue drop from the roof of your mouth. Let your forehead smooth out.

Fifth breath: Notice what's on your mind. Not to solve it. Not to judge it. Just name it like you're watching a wave pass on the horizon. Oh, there's that worry. There's that question. There's that thing I keep carrying. Watch it. Let it pass. You don't have to paddle for it.

Step 4: Surface.

Take one more deep breath. Open your eyes. Look around the room like you're seeing it for the first time.

Name three things you can see. That's you, coming back to the surface.

That's it. Three minutes. No revelations required.

The whole point is to practice being here: fully, physically, actually here, without needing this moment to be anything other than what it is.

Try it once a day this week.

Morning, night, doesn't matter.

Just three minutes of not chasing anything.

You might be surprised by what shows up when you stop looking so hard.

Reading the Water

Here's what I want to leave you with this week.

If you're in a season where nothing makes sense, where you feel like everyone around you has it figured out and you're just bobbing in the fog , I want you to know that this is not a failure.

This is not you falling behind.

This is a season of awareness trying to break through, and it needs you to cooperate by getting quiet.

You don't need another self-help book.

You don't need a better morning routine.

You don't need to overhaul your life by next Tuesday.

You need to stop paddling for a second.

Sit up on your board.

And feel what's already moving underneath you.

The ocean has been talking to you this whole time.

The waves haven't stopped. Your job isn't to go find them.

Your job is to get still enough to feel them coming.

And then, only then, take your two calm strokes and ride.

🏄🏻‍♂️See you in the water.🏄🏻‍♂️

Kevin Andreosky, Founder

Beyond the Break, a newsletter by Soul Surf Wax

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